I don't even know what to say. This might have been one of the worst school days I've had so far. All this worry, all this stress just to fuck everything up at the end. Wow good job martyna. 
U are so fucking great.  The metro ride home was one of the worst ones ever. I don't want to be here anymore. It's funny how I want to be an actor but i cant even fucking get a role in a school play. 
hehe I suck. there is however 0.008% chance I might get it.... ehhh..... i don't know what to think anymore. Oh and when i was doing my improv at one point...i like was asleep? i dunno its like i wasnt even there it was sooo weird like I was druged or i dunno I blacked out because i was so tired and stressed...wow this never happened to me before....it was the strangest thing ever.... 



Hmmm....co tu powiedziec.... zepsulam wszystko i teraz jestem wsciekla. Jak ja nawet nie umiem zagrac jakies balleriny to jak nie wiem juz co bedzie potem. Nawet nie chce mi sie jesc ani wogole nic robic bo jestem po proztu soba rozczarowana. Czy ten dzien by zly? Tak, zdecydowanie tak. Juz nie moge wytrzymać tego miasta i tego metra.... A i jak bylam na scenie to tak jakbym mnie nie bylo..... alez to bylo dziwne uczucie tak jakbym spala i po minucie sie obudzila i wogole nie wiedzilam co ja robie.... po prostu ...to bylo strasznie dziwne...wow